there was nothing to fear and nothing to doub

this is enough... i will not keep lying to myself... still in love u with you "aaa", maybe you didnt even read this fucking blog... but i cant pretend that everything will be fine, no matter how hard i try to get involved in my jobs, dating and meeting new people... or whatever i gonna do... and i know, you really dont want to know about all of this, about my daily life, i just want that somehow, someway, someday you let me get a little closer to you and rebuild our friendship... i fightin my own demons and maybe finally all the things that you hate will be erased... hope u will have a little faith in me... coz i still want you to share my life with you... just try to understand my past and all the things that changed me over the years... im trying to do my best, my best effort everyday... i know i have failed but at least i will keep trying... maybe u have a new boyfriend, maybe u already found a fantastic new life and i am just dreaming about...
there is a lot of things that i really want to tell you.... maybe this year i come back to school... anyways this could be wasted words, wasted time, coz in the end this blog is just a dead space....

2 great songs... how i love the last one, ha... just how i feel right now